Mammogram

My mother and grandmother had breast cancer. My mom was diagnosed when she was in her mid twenties and died from the disease in her early thirties, when I was just about 10 years old. The chance of having such disease is very high. I finally went and got a mammogram done today but I won't get results till probably next week. I'm anxious about it. Like who wouldn't right. It was a weird experience. My tit got squooshed like a pancake in between two flat plates for about 30 seconds. To be continued with results...

I failed to blog!

It's been three days since I last did one. Well alot has happened. Hmm here I have a good one. I would usually talk about my day but change of scene okay. This chick realized she lost the guy that was great to her, of course when she lost him, for those dense people(is what AV would say) when they broke up ok. She realized her new lover was a user and of course she wanted to reconcile with the ex after not being treated right. The ex looked stupid in front of all his and her "friends". The "friends" saw what was going on. She would act all different when si user is around while she was still dating ex. So si ex was just sucking it in saying in his mind, when is she going to break up with me already. Just so he knows for sure he doesn't hurt this girl. So the user was not Mr. Right and the fact that the ex was a great guy she assumed he will take her back with no hesitation. But it didn't happen that way. He was hesitant, because of how they broke up . Well for a girl to break down and try more than once to reconcile, proves to him she has changed and realized and want to try it one more time (I'm hoping it will work out). It takes alot to break down and talk about how you got played especially when your talking to an ex. If you give someone that second chance to prove his/herself I think is the right thight to do, now when it happens the third time thats when you yourself have issues. Well it all depends what the situation may be. People change after stupid things happen in their life. trust me me, I've learned the hard way and I thank god everyday for giving me this second chance that I myself is going through. So the ex thinks about it and got come consultation, realizes that he has issues of his own while in the relationship as well and that probably was of the problem that caused the problems. Is what the his consultant said. The problem was they weren't meeting halfway, it's usually was he wants. That is not healthy in a relationship. For instance, For awhile when I would have sex, I don't ride for shit. So of course my man is going to be tired of that and he's going to eventually want to try someone that will ride his ass. Right men and ladies?! Solution: You know my ass be riding his ass nowadays just to satisfy our relationship. Okay back to the subject. He's doing a second try on the relationship and we just have to see if it does work out. Another problem has risin. She is now too worried about what would people say. One thing about being from our lovely island of Saipan, everyone talks crap no matter what you do, whether it's positive or negative. It's up to you to let it bother your daily life. Here's something to think about just so you can hopefully let that mentality go. If you answer yes to any of these questions, then you need more help. #1 Do they pay your bills? #2 Do they satisfy your needs? Usually they just either hate on you or they can't stand you being so fake or what AV would say, maybe your just dense like that. Okay I hope this was written well enough for yaw'll to understand ( AV! yaw'll means you all okay! For the dense peolple). Ok what do you think?

Recovery...

Today was not a productive day. Woke up 4:45 am dropped Joey to work came home, waited till 6 am to wake my 7 year old daughter Fiona and my 9 year old grand-neice-in-law Agnes up for school. At 7 am their usually on the way to the bus stop which is like 2 minutes away. I would wait for Fiona to call me from her cell phone to let me know she's there already. My 9 month old son FrankieLov aka Lov or booboo, will be awake for one feeding and we would fall asleep for a couple of hours. Joey walks in at 10 am and my ass is still dreaming. Of course Lov startles as Uncle Joey opens the door. He goes an d bugs Uncle Joey for a little. Maybe about an hour later Uncle Joey makes a discovery in Lov's diapers that I don't think he can handle cause of past discoveries that he thought was crazy(pupu leaking from every corner), so I took over and did the honors...lmao. Uncle Joey promised he was going to just take a shower and be back. And sure he did come back. So my tired ass went back to sleep. Not being used to the help, I woke up shouting, "FrankieLov!" And I was so close to the wall I can hear banging on the other side of the wall and remembered Joey took him. Back to sleep again, I was tired as hell man. I guess I didn't get enough sleep and I had a hard workout late last night plus I have bad cramps ( I have my period). So while I was sleeping I felt like someone is walking towards me, and it was Joey holding Lov while he was sleeping. So cute! Good job Uncle Joey! So that was about 1pm, and you know, I went back to sleep for another hour and was awake at 2 pm cause it was time to eat. Got up ate and chilled on the couch for a little. Threw the dishes in the dishwasher, only in america, lol. Asked Joey if he can make his specialty, fried pork chops. Helped the kids with homework, and chilled to like 8 pm. Went to work out for an hour, took a shower and now I'm eating dinner while typing this blog. Sounds like a cheap story. Well like I said I just started this, so I can say I didn't have much to think about today and nothing really happened. More like nothing really exciting to write. See ya tomorrow! O one more thing, Joey thanks for you know taking Lov today. Esta.

Woohooo! I did it without Joey's help!

Ok here I go, I read people's blogs, and it's quite interesting 90% percent of the time. In Joey's eyes, it's good practice. I totally agree. Since I just started going to college again, I think I'm going to need practice in writing. I love it already. Well it's like 11:45 pm, still in my workout clothes from 2 hours ago, yuck is what I would say. I have to wash some baby bottles, make the husbands bento, hit the shower and get some sleep. I just wanted to see how this would work. Till tomorrow.